Come to Jesus

My birthday is in approximately 3 weeks, this has lead me to my usual, annual "Come to Jesus" moment and talk with myself. About where I am in my life, if I have achieved what I wanted to achieve a year ago, and of course, if I am any further in my life and grown up than a year ago. Well, I don't know. Since I still officially have 3 weeks to "Come to Jesus" I still have not figured that out. A year ago, I was unemployeed, Now, I have a new job and a new career. I am happy, but hmm, I am not a millionaire yet, nor am I debt free. Well, so am I better off than I was a year ago? Am I smarter? More mature? I still have no idea and I can guarentee, that in 3 weeks, I still will not know. I don't think I am. I do think I have changed and grown more though. So yea, I guess I am smarter and more mature. I have lived through experiences that a year ago, I thought would kill me, like loosing my job and going through 3 months of unemployment. I have learned to manage in several aspects of my life, including my money, my social life, my health and in my job.

At a time in the U.S. Economy when everyone is scared, I am living through it, as we all are, yet I remain optimistic as we can all say, that someday everything will be better and we will have all lived through this and tell our children that I survived that economic crisis. That alone makes me fell more mature and worthy of my impending birthday.

I am discovering who I am and why I am passionate about what I am passionate about. I have lost the fear to share it with the world (this blog) and I am continuing to work on my art and feed my urge to be creative and the artist that I want to be.

Last year around this time, I was scared. I was 25 and thinking, "Shit, I will be 26 and what have I done with my life?" And now I'm am about to turn 27 and thinking, Who cares! it may take me until I am 70 to figure out why I am on this planet but at least I am having fun figuring it out. And really, that is all we can ask out of life. We may never know why we are here until the end but for the time we are on this planet, we may as well enjoy it and live. No matter how old we are, what our friends or peers are doing or what society says we should be doing. Age is irrelevent, its a number and yes, every year we grow, but every year is just another year to enjoy what you have and what you are given.